Life often feels the easiest when your eyes are not on God. At least in America it is this way. All feelings of guilt are easily pushed away and worry for others is brushed to the side rather than given to prayer. Life is easier and your mind is filled with ease during the day. However, when the night comes, the emptiness invades, you begin to look at your life and wonder why in the world are you here? The primary goal of all evil spirits of this world is to cut off connection with our Father. That is where our strength is found. Often this is easiest when life seems good. Our tangible need for God floods away. Only when we look back at what has occurred do we see our inaction and lack of purpose without Him. The last few days I have become more aware of my desire for approval of specific others. When I begin to look in my own heart, I see this wanting of being wanted. A jealousy for those whom I desire, not even who are mine. Then I step back and search the heart of my Lord. His jealousy rages, not for those he only desires, but for those who are rightfully His. At first one may feel skeptical seeing God as being jealous, but it is simply that our God is so passionately in love with us he wants us to always have what is best! Us being designed for Him, we can only be satisfied with him. All purpose and joy is found in Him. Surely as a loving God he is jealous. We are not our own, we have been bought for a price, not of money or land, but of blood, the dear blood of our great God's son. His jealousy in Just.
